It’s amazing how a moment in time takes you back in time, no
matter good or bad. Being a woman that
loves herself 90 percent of the time, I’ve found that sometimes the 10 percent
can really weigh me down. Emotions are a
huge part of a woman’s life and I know I am not the exception. Some days are
better than others but all in all I do truly love myself and I’m happy where my
life is. With that said, I have times
where emotions get the best of me and I may not like myself for a little
while. Being honest with myself, I know there
are some things I need to change. My
husband and daughter love me and I’m extremely thankful for that, but in the
end I have to be the one that loves me and feels good about myself. Let me get down and dirty or should I just
say honest for a few minutes about how I’m feeling.
I have gained weight, Feel as though I don’t have any close friends, Need to find a job, Exercise more, Stop overeating, and Write more.
Now that all of that has been put out there, I can take the small
steps needed to rejoin my amazing life with a smile on my face. Life gets tough/hard but we are the ones that
have to look past what might be driving us crazy and know that just around the
corner is a whole new block of adventure.
I am in charge of making myself happy and I know that I can do it.
I’ve started watching The Bethenny Show and I must say that
I like the layout and overall feel of her show.
I know she has been on reality television and wrote books but after
seeing her on something one day, I haven’t been a fan of hers. Maybe it was on one of her off days but I
didn’t like her attitude and didn’t care to have her take up any space in my
life. Well after stumbling across her
talk show, I’ve come to like her and the way she expresses herself. She seems to be someone that I would enjoy
going out to dinner with or walking around town just talking with. Today on her show she talked about “Taste
Everything, Eat Nothing” and it was the moment that I was slapped upside my
head. Let’s go back to 2007 and I thought I had my
eating in check, meaning I wasn’t over eating and I felt good about myself. I had lost about 60 pounds and was feeling
amazing. At first I had been on a very
strict and sad diet that I was hardly eating any food that I enjoyed. After losing the first 10 pounds I came to
the conclusion that if I was going to really lose weight and keep it off, I had
to make big changes in the way I ate. Therefore I started eating a lot of
different foods but only a small portion of each. If I wanted pizza then I would have a small
slice or even a half of slice, if I wanted ice cream I would have a few spoons,
if I wanted cheese then I had a couple of bites. During that time, I felt so good about myself
and I was super confident. Fast forward
to October 1, 2013 and I feel as though I am back in the rut of feeling bad
about my weight and it’s making me sad. With
that said, a change has already started and I’m going back with the motto of “Taste
Everything, Eat Nothing”. That way I
will not be on a strict diet and I will still be able to eat what I like, just
in a whole different aspect. My next
adventure has started and I’m looking forward to what is coming my way.
